i am gloomy and low...

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... and i don't really know why

the war?
the weather?
reading watchmen till 3 in the morning last night?

― mark s (mark s), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 11:02 (twenty-three years ago)

seeing as i don't usually do "cyclic downturn" i am a bit thrown by this

― mark s (mark s), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 11:03 (twenty-three years ago)

fancy a pint, mark?

― Marcello Carlin, Wednesday, 12 March 2003 11:06 (twenty-three years ago)

it's the shelves comedown

― zemko (bob), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 11:07 (twenty-three years ago)

Bing! Working today? Shared caffeine opportunity later? Have to go to Edgy Style Mag first but will happily come to yr. rescue.

― suzy (suzy), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 11:09 (twenty-three years ago)

well yes i do marcello, but i am booked up solid w.work and social stuff till next week

i fancy a pamper, really, i think — a cyber-pamper will possibly suffice for this morning

― mark s (mark s), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 11:11 (twenty-three years ago)

suzy i am super-busy at work this week cz we have a redesign and everything is late as a result, so i think i have to decline, grrr

haha z3mko is probably OTM

― mark s (mark s), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 11:12 (twenty-three years ago)

actually no suzy i've decided not to decline, fuck it: the issue can be late for a change

― mark s (mark s), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 11:14 (twenty-three years ago)

OK so should I pick you up at one-ish?

― suzy (suzy), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 11:19 (twenty-three years ago)

yay!

― mark s (mark s), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 11:22 (twenty-three years ago)

''the war?''

*sigh* yes the war. It's not so much that but for the fact that I'm getting a bit depressed bcz my parents think I'm full of shit for being anti-war.

Pity you won't be coming along to peckham to watch reynolds (i will hopefully be meeting bob snoom there, if i do make it).

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 11:25 (twenty-three years ago)

Time of the month?

That's my excuse for random bursts of angst-fire and gloominess.

― kate, Wednesday, 12 March 2003 11:32 (twenty-three years ago)

maybe it's change of life kate :(

― mark s (mark s), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 11:35 (twenty-three years ago)

Drink coffee Mark! (Oh Suzy has beaten me to it already)... :(

I am always too slow.

But! I was very depressed and crying in the loo earlier and not at all together at all together (ahem) but now I have had one cup of very strong coffee and feel human again! Two cups and ph33r m3 Nietzche for I am SUPERWOMAN!

― Sarah (starry), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 11:38 (twenty-three years ago)

Don't scare her! OK see you at one Mark - will swipe you a new Edgy Style Mag and a Time Out (in the event that my bank, like the frigid virgin it is, refuses to put out, may have to spot me a coffee).

― suzy (suzy), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 11:38 (twenty-three years ago)

I never do cyclical downturn (like I never do ill) but this week ahve been feeling shit for possibly both reasons. FAP: Thursday and farting sureptitiously in my office are the only things keeping me going.

― Pete (Pete), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 11:44 (twenty-three years ago)

*hugs*

mark you are the best

― geeta (geeta), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 11:47 (twenty-three years ago)

For me, it's war, weathar, and Civ III until 2 in the morning. Yet I have no pals here to buy me coffee. Count yer blessings, Mark!

― Colin Meeder (Mert), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 11:52 (twenty-three years ago)

for me, being-downness is almost always attributable to not having had enough sleep. hope you're feeling more perky now, mark. some tea might help. mmm, tea.

― rener (rener), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 12:03 (twenty-three years ago)

Yeah it's the in the morning thing, well for me it is - I was up pissing about until an ungodly hour on Sunday night and felt glum all through Monday/Tuesday. Indulge yourself with something daytime!

― Tom (Groke), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 12:52 (twenty-three years ago)

God, this glum-mood is catching, isn't it? I've just booked a couple of days off work next week because I've had enough for this term. You're all more than welcome to meet me in Dawlish for a St Patrick's beer on Monday.

― Nick Southall (Nick Southall), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 13:01 (twenty-three years ago)

I'd been doing quite well at being positive this spring, but I just found out a couple of days ago that I didn't get shortlisted for a job I really wanted to do (and thought I was qualified for), but that the whole post was a stitch-up for an internal candidate anyway. Now I am having trouble seeing the point of working in such a sucky industry.

― alext (alext), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 13:05 (twenty-three years ago)

Cheer up Private Eye-stylee!

Q: Sir, An associate of mine has recently announced that he feels under a cloud, partly due to impending world events. The prospect of two world powers in battle is of concern to us all, and I was wondering whether you might be able to illustrate the problem for us.

A: http://www.stevienixed.com/mark.jpg

― Andrew Farrell (afarrell), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 13:12 (twenty-three years ago)

I am brilliant.

― Andrew Farrell (afarrell), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 13:12 (twenty-three years ago)

Yes you are! Made me smile (again).

― Nick Southall (Nick Southall), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 13:27 (twenty-three years ago)

Oh Pete do NOT mention farting. If there's one thing I dislike it's fah fah fah farting. I am feeling gloomy and down again. But this was before our doggie died. I had this *premonition* which I knew was based on nothing but now I have to tell myself even more it was just *gloomy feelings* nothing more.

― nathalie (nathalie), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 13:33 (twenty-three years ago)

*good cheer for Mark* It's a mess but things will improve, somehow, some way. :-)

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 14:09 (twenty-three years ago)

I don't know what the weather is like where you are, but it is supposed to be in the high 60s today now. I'm looking out my window at a big blue sunny sky and fresh green grass. I wish you well.

― Sarah McLusky (coco), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 14:14 (twenty-three years ago)

come to FAP tomorrow, nath, that'll cheer you up. "stained sheets." i'll be the chance, you be the lunch... ;-)

― Marcello Carlin, Wednesday, 12 March 2003 14:18 (twenty-three years ago)

mark you've been AIMing and drinking beer, what do you expect??

― Tracer Hand (tracerhand), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 16:56 (twenty-three years ago)

i'll be the chance, you be the lunch...

Let's make lots of money.

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 16:59 (twenty-three years ago)

i hope you have cheered up mark, and gone for that pint ( oops sorry i meant coffee )with suzy :-)

― donna (donna), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 17:22 (twenty-three years ago)

Mark you need to listen to Emmett Miller!

― Amateurist (amateurist), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 17:28 (twenty-three years ago)

cheer up mark s! But even if you can't Gloom has its upsides:

http://cartaspokemon.metropoliglobal.com/inventadas/gloom.jpg

― felicity (felicity), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 17:31 (twenty-three years ago)

Ooh that special powder attack looks very handy - shame you can't apply weakness and resistance. And you only need one energy card to use it, interesting, I can see that being a sneaky attack in someones deck... AND only one energy card to retreat! Good old Gloom eh!

I'm going home now...

― Sarah (starry), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 17:36 (twenty-three years ago)

I hope mark has cheered up. I have a presentation tomorrow morning (and then another talk the friday after) so I am feeling a bit gloomy too.

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 17:39 (twenty-three years ago)

mark in googling for photos to cheer you up i accidentally tripped over a sketch of a lizardman with an enormous phallus. let me know if this might help.

― mark p (Mark P), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 17:41 (twenty-three years ago)

I would send a dozen fun-fur covered changelings mark's way to cheer him if they were available on the internet.

― Nicole (Nicole), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 17:43 (twenty-three years ago)

Yes indeed. :-)

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 17:43 (twenty-three years ago)

Gloom evolves from Oddish, so if you are feeling oddish take care it may cross over to a gloom.

Oddish (artist's rendering):

http://supak.com/robin/pokemon/oddish_150.jpgSquirtle, Ash, Oddish, Jigglypuff, bulbasaur, growlithe, ekans (pasta):

http://www.whom.co.uk/fizdrink/shapes_pokemon.jpg

― felicity (felicity), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 17:46 (twenty-three years ago)

LONDON
THE FUTURE
DON'T GET CAUGHT
[loads verrry slowly]...

i think this painting was done in 1982...

― gygax! (gygax!), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 17:54 (twenty-three years ago)

Hey Mark S! Cheer up! I find that the best way to cheer oneself up is to meet a good friend and buy stuff you don't really want.

― jel -- (jel), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 17:57 (twenty-three years ago)

I'd send you some kitten pics if I thought it might help. Come to the FAP tomorrow night. It's hugely entertaining even if you don't sing at all.

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 20:07 (twenty-three years ago)

sadly i am stuck with other tasks on the FAP evening martin — not tiresome ones, just urgent ones (eg helping a friend on the semi-final draft of her BA thesis)

i think i am just in a melancholic space: i had a v.nice coffee w.suzy, and dr vick and sistrah becky were both just round all evening helping me sift through ancient rubbish to archive and shelve or ditch, and vick went away borrowing "tales of moominvalley" — so i have had two very productive days, except old documents always call up complicated old ghosts

― mark s (mark s), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 23:25 (twenty-three years ago)

can someone start a "lizardmen with giant phalluses" thread so i have somewhere to post this picture?

― mark p (Mark P), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 23:27 (twenty-three years ago)

post it on this thread mark p

― mark s (mark s), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 23:31 (twenty-three years ago)

http://www.macrophile.com/~seph/art/lizardman.jpg

― !!!!!!!!!!!! (Mark P), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 23:36 (twenty-three years ago)

it's like tom of tolkien

― mark p (Mark P), Wednesday, 12 March 2003 23:36 (twenty-three years ago)

"complicated ghosts" = they don't make it up the stairs to rattle their chains at you b/c they get stuck reading the 5 appendixes to their chain-rattling instruction manual

― Tracer Hand (tracerhand), Thursday, 13 March 2003 00:22 (twenty-three years ago)

tom of angband

― mark s (mark s), Thursday, 13 March 2003 00:26 (twenty-three years ago)

it's okay to feel a little low, mark. i think it's essential, actually; i do hope it turns around though cause that's the nice bit

― gothy hand (tracerhand), Thursday, 13 March 2003 00:39 (twenty-three years ago)

mark you should listen to the spice girls "wannabe" and dance around with yourself. (hopefully) then you will feel better.

― di smith (lucylurex), Thursday, 13 March 2003 00:45 (twenty-three years ago)

tom of bangbus.

― michael wells (michael w.), Thursday, 13 March 2003 02:13 (twenty-three years ago)

mark s, the girl with the knife loves you!

― rainy (rainy), Thursday, 13 March 2003 08:02 (twenty-three years ago)

She's coming over to butter your toast this morning, so you better tidy up your undies drawer!

― rainy (rainy), Thursday, 13 March 2003 08:09 (twenty-three years ago)

must remember not to open this thread in the library

― Ed (dali), Thursday, 13 March 2003 08:36 (twenty-three years ago)

http://www.spies.com/~gus/musings/may98/knife.jpg

― rainy (rainy), Thursday, 13 March 2003 10:33 (twenty-three years ago)

i am feeling much better today: thx all

― mark s (mark s), Thursday, 13 March 2003 11:19 (twenty-three years ago)

well, today i feel gloomy and low, so there.

― g-kit (g-kit), Thursday, 13 March 2003 11:55 (twenty-three years ago)

you don't even have to say anything... a picture of HBC would do...

― g-kit (g-kit), Thursday, 13 March 2003 15:00 (twenty-three years ago)

ha! hope you get better (why are you low and gloomy anyway?).

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Thursday, 13 March 2003 15:05 (twenty-three years ago)

i don't know... i'm never really sure, it's usually non-specific when i get low. hormones?

― g-kit (g-kit), Thursday, 13 March 2003 15:06 (twenty-three years ago)

Mark, I saw Naomi for the first time in 8 months and she tells me that all three of her children LOVE Buffy.

― Frank Kogan (Frank Kogan), Thursday, 13 March 2003 22:23 (twenty-three years ago)

i think i'm now feeling gloomy and low... :-(

― Marcello Carlin, Friday, 14 March 2003 15:50 (twenty-three years ago)

Hopefully not from the previous statement, Mr. Carlin! If anything that should give you good cheer. :-) *kind thoughts to Marcello*

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Friday, 14 March 2003 15:54 (twenty-three years ago)

seconded!

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Friday, 14 March 2003 15:55 (twenty-three years ago)

what's up marcello? email me if you want (though i won't see my home email till i get home, the demon website is buggy today)

haha frank i delighted yet entirely unsurprised to hear that

― mark s (mark s), Friday, 14 March 2003 16:25 (twenty-three years ago)

i emailed you at home, mark, vis-a-vis the friendship thread.

― Marcello Carlin, Friday, 14 March 2003 16:47 (twenty-three years ago)

one month passes...

oh bah:

i was due to spend the whole day today with ________________ and have really been looking forward to it for ages, and it wz still on yesterday bigtime, but got a text at 11am saying "with brother staving off weltschmerz can't come out sorry see you soon x ________________"

and now i am blue too: yes i can get lots of work done i meant to do yesterday, and wz cross w.myself for not doing, but it is no substitute/yes i can phone all and sundry and talk to them abt this or that, but that is no substitute either, and will probbly actually make the denied anticipation seem sharper

― mark s (mark s), Monday, 5 May 2003 11:56 (twenty-three years ago)

eighteen years pass...

these earlier entries all worked themselves out and i'm sure this one will also

and really the issue today at the moment feels more like SLOW than LOW: bcz of my tremendous age and bcz of my meds (beta blockers) i just can't seem to get thru the work and the writing i'm embarked on as fast i feel i need to (or want to). the work is a good interesting book that i'm editing and it's not difficult but i;ts taking longer than it should. the writing is something i planned to finish before i started work on the book. i actually did a lot today! but somehow i've ended up feeling a bit defeated…

― mark s, Wednesday, 10 November 2021 20:10 (four years ago)

Sorry to hear mark, have been more down than up this whole month too. Hopefully it passes for us both.

― suggest bainne (gyac), Wednesday, 10 November 2021 20:35 (four years ago)

speed is overrated, and sometimes the writing/editing flows and sometimes not

it's a low bar coming from me -- i'm increasingly unable to get out of bed -- but that you can actually accomplish any such things is pretty decent

― mookieproof, Wednesday, 10 November 2021 20:44 (four years ago)

i wish i had all the time in the world -- some of my gloom certainly stems from knowing i no longer do

anyway thx all for supportive posts, let's see what today brings and may all yr blue fogs dissipate!

― mark s, Thursday, 11 November 2021 11:17 (four years ago)

I've been in a deep funk for about a month, getting progressively worse. I realized yesterday that I think I'm suffering from side effects of medication that I'm taking for restless leg syndrome. Horizant is a time delay gabapentin and I got off of it yesterday. Things had progressed to where I was snapping at the kids and getting road rage and feeling down and depressed. Hopefully things will start to improve now.

― Cow_Art, Thursday, 11 November 2021 15:58 (four years ago)

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