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Yes, already. It only took five days.

How easy is it/how much does it cost to change a return flight?

Failing that, does anyone in New England or New York want to let me sleep on their couch for a week and a half? I'm only half kidding.

― the river fleet, Wednesday, 21 January 2004 20:19 (twenty-two years ago)

Well depends on what company you're flying with. Usually only about 100 dollars - sometimes even less.

― nathalie (nathalie), Wednesday, 21 January 2004 20:21 (twenty-two years ago)

What's up, K?

Contemplating matricide? Been there...

― suzy (suzy), Wednesday, 21 January 2004 20:23 (twenty-two years ago)

It's the silent treatment right now. You know, not like we have anything to talk about that we haven't already exhausted in five days, without recourse to just squabbling. Why did I come here? I knew it was a bad idea. I'm not doing this again, no matter how cheap the fares.

― the river fleet, Wednesday, 21 January 2004 20:29 (twenty-two years ago)

just go hang out in new york for a few days and maybe things'll be better when you get back...

― aleksandr supertramp (Jody Beth Rosen), Wednesday, 21 January 2004 20:33 (twenty-two years ago)

A fine idea, that! Alternately, make her listen to MBV.

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Wednesday, 21 January 2004 20:34 (twenty-two years ago)

Can't afford to go to NYC. Spent too much on my new computer. Which hasn't even arrived yet, so crapazola, I can't even leave yet. I'm just really homesick and I think that coming here was the wrong decision.

― the river fleet, Wednesday, 21 January 2004 20:36 (twenty-two years ago)

Yeah, go hang out, because NYC not the same as rest of USA. I always pencil in the fight with my mom for about three or four days into a visit and plan accordingly with Chris to go and get drrrrrrrunk enough to have to recuperate at her house the next day. It clears the air and distracts Mom with an amusing hangover to mock.

Why did you go? Keep your eyes fixed on the shiny shiny Apple.

― suzy (suzy), Wednesday, 21 January 2004 20:39 (twenty-two years ago)

You could always buy a scooter.

― El Diablo Robotico (Nicole), Wednesday, 21 January 2004 20:40 (twenty-two years ago)

I forgot that my mum wasn't in Albany any more, and I don't know anyone in this neighbourhood, and neither does she, really, so we're both just bored and trapped in a house with someone we don't really know and are not sure we really like.

I can't even remember how to drive a car. :-(

There's nothing I can do about this situation right now, I just need to blow off steam.

― the river fleet, Wednesday, 21 January 2004 20:44 (twenty-two years ago)

Why did you go? Keep your eyes fixed on the shiny shiny Apple.

wait all that way just to pick up a ~~chicken~~ computer?!

― cozen (Cozen), Wednesday, 21 January 2004 20:50 (twenty-two years ago)

Well, also under the stupid delusion that it might be a good idea to spend some time with my mum who I hadn't seen in over two years. And within a few days, I remember why it's been over two years. Sigh.

I'm wasting time being here, I should be back in London looking for a job. And America scares me at the moment, I'm feeling more and more uncomfortable here. Granted, being on ILX doesn't help that, but neither does reading Time magazine, for example.

― the river fleet, Wednesday, 21 January 2004 20:52 (twenty-two years ago)

Kate, you might be able to get a cheap train ticket. Surely you've got a couple bucks for it? I'm only around Monday eve-Thursdays but I'll plenty hang witcha. I know the feeling at any rate and I have a good relationship with my mom; family obligations just get...grating after a couple days of it. When we were estranged it was a horrorshow.

― Allyzay, Wednesday, 21 January 2004 23:13 (twenty-two years ago)

Awww petal, that's awful. I hope you can sort summit out. *hugs*

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Thursday, 22 January 2004 12:39 (twenty-two years ago)

I hope your mum isn't checking ILX any more!

― Matt DC (Matt DC), Thursday, 22 January 2004 12:41 (twenty-two years ago)

We had the major explosion yesterday afternoon. We *always* follow the same pattern. We get along OK, then somewhat stiltedly, then I fail to do something to live up to the expectations of a perfect daughter, and then we have a massive explosion about everything we've done wrong to each other since before we were born, and scream and cry and slam doors. And then we apologise to each other and it blows over.

I should know the pattern, it's been happening since I was a teenager. I really thought we'd grown out of it. I just don't have the nerves for it any more. I resent being emotionally manipulated. She screams and calls me an ungrateful brat, and tells me to leave, to get out now, go back to my life without her. But if I ask her point blank "Do you want me to leave? Are you throwing me out?" then she turns it around and shrugs and shouts "It's YOUR choice" so she can play the victim and whinge that it's me leaving her, like everyone does, her husband, her parents, etc. etc. blah blah ad infinitum. So if I leave, I'm the bad guy and it's my fault. It's like this weird sick game show, where I have to *choose* to stay even as she's trying to throw me out, in order to prove that I love her, and then I win the prize of being loved again.

And she wonders why I invariably end up with abusive men.

― the river fleet, Thursday, 22 January 2004 14:23 (twenty-two years ago)

That really does sound horrible. I guess you don't have the luxury of visiting your mum in short bursts like ppl that live in the same country. You just need to ask yourself if you can handle any more time staying with her.

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Thursday, 22 January 2004 14:25 (twenty-two years ago)

aw, that sounds not fun at all. just know that we all miss you back here. should we plan a 'welcome back FAP' as something for you to look forward to?

i also suggest spending lots of time either watching reruns on cable tv or shopping in superstores/malls (target or kmart can fill an entire afternoon)

― colette (a2lette), Thursday, 22 January 2004 14:29 (twenty-two years ago)

Especially since it had been so long since we saw each other that there was so much pressure on us to ENJOY OURSELVES.

We don't get television up here. (Which is why I'm spending so much time on the internet.) Though we watched a video of House Of Cards on TV, which had my mum shouting at the television and me sniggering smugly going "You smug Tory bastards, oh, you're so going to get it, aren't you, ha ha, look at the Saatchi figure snorting coke, ha ha, look at them making fun of the bloke that looks just like John Majer, you know THAT'S WHO YOU'RE ENDING UP WITH AT THE END OF IT ALL!!! BWAH HAH HAH HAH HAH!!!!"

We've been to Walmart twice but then I found the gun counter and now I'm scared to go back.

Sorry to spill all this here, but I really need somewhere to blow off steam about it all.

― the river fleet, Thursday, 22 January 2004 14:43 (twenty-two years ago)

I hope it improves for you!

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Thursday, 22 January 2004 14:45 (twenty-two years ago)

can you subscribe to netflix and watch oodles of DVDs? or rent all the videos at blockbuster you've never seen and/or want to watch again/will annoy your mom so you can snicker in revenge?

― colette (a2lette), Thursday, 22 January 2004 15:32 (twenty-two years ago)

We've been to Walmart twice but then I found the gun counter and now I'm scared to go back.

This is one moment where I'm going to show off my naivety but WTF?!!

― Matt DC (Matt DC), Thursday, 22 January 2004 15:56 (twenty-two years ago)

matt, didn't you see 'bowling for columbine'? all the big superstores sell guns. except kmart doesn't anymore, because of m.m. and his wounded friends.

― colette (a2lette), Thursday, 22 January 2004 15:59 (twenty-two years ago)

Wasn't it the bullets?

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Thursday, 22 January 2004 15:59 (twenty-two years ago)

Funny thing about Walmart, they've banned a Sheryl Crow CD because of a song in which she denounces Walmart for selling guns but not CDs with cusswords on 'em, but they still sell guns.

― nickalicious (nickalicious), Thursday, 22 January 2004 16:04 (twenty-two years ago)

I've seen Bowling For Columbine, but it still shocks me. As does the idea of Sheryl Crowe as a revolutionary, so perhaps I ameasily shocked today.

― Anna (Anna), Thursday, 22 January 2004 16:21 (twenty-two years ago)

and they cut the song 'H.W.C' from the new liz phair album as well. bastards.

right, feeling better about having walmart being your only entertainment, then?

is there a DQ? a denny's? anything else you can do to boost your americana consumption to make sure you don't want to go back for a good long while and feel cravings for 'moons over my hammy' or somthing?

― colette (a2lette), Thursday, 22 January 2004 16:24 (twenty-two years ago)

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