going to a friends house birthday party where you know no one else - C or D?

(I guess that's a vote in favour of going. I'm going to take my camera, and some bottles, and hide behind both)

perhaps i will turn up with lots of bottles too

(this is better than the last time I went to this particular friend's birthday party: I got very, very drunk and passed out in a flowerbed)

fattist

1. take music and hang around the hi-fi all evening

2. take booze and drink a fair amount of it, but also give some of it away, esp later in the evening

3. be single, it's a damn sight easier (for flirting reasons)

4. be not single, it's a damn sight easier (for different, "see, i'm not threatening" reasons)

(not literally. Literally, being paralytically drunk is where I usually fall down)

friend was pathologically happy to see me but as she was the host, didnt really have time to chat with each other all evening
got dropped off not so subtly with a group of 4 girls, none of whom are actually single as it turns out, got talking stiffly with one, which was okay, if a bit self conscious, got talking to another, who dropped in that she was with her boyfriend in the first sentence

problem with these things is that everyone is coupled up/already knows each other/sticks to their own groups, so its hard to penetrate
or perhaps im just being defeatist

plus, its hard being single on your own, conscious that youre trying to NOT appear a threat, yet at the same time, prove that are a nice normal person in hope of finding someone equally single (or something)

extra special plus, its fucking weird meeting people you have met before but you might as well not have, its worse than never meeting them cos you have barely anything to say to one another

i felt much better when i left the party early, didnt really feel like myself there, not to a tragic degree, just to a degree i wasnt all that comfortable
fuck parties, i cant be bothered to go out anymore

(which is usually the case on, for example, work events)

This is why I'm probably better at parties when I'm NOT single. I can be like "hey, I'll talk to anybody about anything because I already have a g/f so I don't really care what you guys think about me".

i did talk to strangers but most of them were too cliquey for my liking. or perhaps i just have a complex about that sort of thing, and maybe they werent cliquey, i just thought they were so ruined it for myself

*smacks forehead*

These are the parties where you often make firm friends for life, because you are forced to talk to strangers.

Or the ones where you stand like an idiot next to the punch bowl sipping alcohol till you're too drunk to even talk to people you know or strangers or even the dog... or mirror. God, I really do not like parties unless I'm with someone and even then because I know they'll desert me for at least 15 minutes during the evening and I of course freak out/freeze up and stand there like a frigging statue staring at the walls. I hated'em especially when I was single because I'm really crap at talking to people (esp strangers).Maybe I'm exaggerating.

"These are the parties where you often make firm friends for life, because you are forced to talk to strangers."

but NO!